His Presence
So throughout last week I had an extreme desire to be in the presence of God. I was feeling empty and looking for things or people to fill that void but God began to speak to me that there not what I'm looking for but that it's Him. I said somewhere along the lines with my conversations with God, God I don't know why I'm bored and trying to text people or search my phone for something to do but the truth is I'm empty and I need You. I'm acting as if Your not here with me so right now I acknowledge You and I ask You to fill my heart. At that moment, He began filling my heart with a desire to write in my journal, to bake cookies, play music and the next thing I know, we were having a good time. Now let me further explain; by default our heart reverts back to its old nature everyday because of the falling nature of man and we have all been "programmed" to operate without God. An example would be like a car that's alignment is off and it pulls to the left, unless you hold the steering wheel and make it go where you want it to go, in the event that you let go of that steering wheel, it would automatically venture to the left. So by default our alignment or our heart is off and we have to be intentional with making it go where we want it to go everyday. How I do that is by surrendering my hearts to God in His presence daily and He fills it with who I truly am "my new nature in Christ" and his characteristics such as love, joy, and peace. Then He becomes the driver and makes sure my heart is in alignment with His will. I am really beginning to understanding the importance of having a personal relationship with Him and knowing how to get into His presence on my own because in His presence are all the issues of my heart dealt with which takes me back to the scripture. "By this we shall come to know (perceive, recognize, and understand) that we are of the Truth, and can reassure (quiet, conciliate, and pacify) our hearts in His presence" 1 John 3:19 What privileges we have that we can now, because of what Jesus did on the cross, conciliate; to overcome the distrust or hostility of, to win or gain, to make compatible, and reconcile, pacify; to bring or restore to a state of peace, calm, to reduce to a state of submission, quiet, and subdue, our hearts in the presence of God.
Furthermore, in my earlier walk it was one thing to get into His presence on Sunday mornings or Tuesday evenings but (I'm speaking for myself) by the next church service my heart was filled again with things that were not like Him, not trusting Him, not at peace with Him and how did I know this because I was living out my old nature again. Another way to put it would be believing the lie because our lives are governed by what our hearts believes. And we can see from the scripture below that we believe with our hearts. Not the concepts we have in our minds about what we agree with. Romans 10:10 says "For with the heart man believes unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation." It was as if I were going in circles. Pour out my heart on Sunday or Tuesday, get back in alignment then get busy in the world and it strips me of my identity, to run back to church to then pour out my heart again to be filled in His presence. And there was a season I was graced to do that because I hadn't learned to get into His presence on my own. But then God began pressing on my heart that He is requiring more of me. That that is not good enough but that I would have to learn to get into His presence daily sometimes multiple times a day so that I could keep my heart connected to Him which is my source of life. Or else I would always have a beggars mentality. Now that pierced my heart when He said that, because a beggar is poor and they live off of alms or in other words their dependent on someone else to feed or provide for them. Nothing's wrong with being dependent when you're a child but the time comes when you are weaned. That same milk is no longer filling and you get hungrier quicker because your growing. "For every one that uses milk is unskillful in the word of righteousness: for he is a babe. But strong meat belongs to them that are of full age, even those who by reason of use have their senses exercised to discern both good and evil. Hebrews 5:13-14
Therefore there is no way around it. I have to feed my Spirit man, my true identity or eventually it will die just like our physical man. The scripture says "Give us this day our daily bread." Matthew 6:11 in the Old Testament they had physical bread that came down from heaven, in the New Testament we have spiritual bread that comes down from heaven which is the life of Jesus. "And Jesus said unto them, I am the bread of life: he that comes to me shall never hunger; and he that believes on me shall never thirst." John 6:35 So the revelation into this is that they (the people of God who were in covenant with Him) had physical bread called manna to preserve there physical man until the coming of Jesus (read Exodus 16) but we (who are apart of the new covenant) have spiritual bread to preserve and strengthen our Spirit man because Jesus already came so when we partake of His bread we partake of His life. (read John 6)Therefore I went from eating twice a week on Sunday's and Tuesday's to eating everyday multiple times a day. And we all know that (physically speaking) if a man is eating 3 times a day, that he is stronger than someone eating 2 times a week. Now my Spirit man which is who I really am was/is getting stronger and my heart is not so easily moved from its connection to God. My true identity is establishing and reinforcing itself because I'm experiencing it on a daily bases and my old life and it's ways of doing things before Christ that only catered to its fleshly needs is dying daily and becoming a faint memory.
I said all of that to say that all of this is done in the presence of God. And if your heart reverts back to believing the lie, get into His presence so you can receive your daily bread which is the life of Jesus which he now lives through you. But remember just like God commanded them not to leave any bread for the morning, so we too cannot feed off of yesterday's bread because it was sufficient for that day. "Take therefore no thought for the morrow; for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof." Matthew 6:34. He purposely made it that way so that we will need Him just as much, or I would say even more so than we need our physical bread/food. We don't eat food today expecting it to keep us full tomorrow. The food we ate yesterday was sufficient for that day only and we have to see it spiritually that way also.
Everything we need is in the presence of God. And the good news is, we all have access because of what Jesus did on the cross. So eat up and watch your Spirit man get stronger. Hope you enjoyed!